didnt blog for quite awhile. decided to blog today. major tiff with mother. sucks. wat a way to start my day. a cut on my thumb, no idea how it came abt. my left arm is still disabled. Zzz. and father is like coming home any moment. i hate being home with him. he's the reason i quarrelled with mother anyway. wat a stupid reason, not worth it at all. not a single bit.

i'm getting quite sick of looking at the same walls everyday. i'm sick of the rules that man set in this house. like a tyrant. just because he's Dad. how stupid. i wanna move out, asap. before he drives the last sanity out of me. oh and joel too. he'll drive both of us crazy some time soon. and perhaps mother too. sometimes, just sometimes, i wonder does he know how much we hate being in his company. he's fine when he's not being the biggest asshole in the universe. but when he slips into one of his moods, he always make me feel like i'm breaking down any moment. i do, everyday. every single day. i just wanna tell him, leave me alone. because every moment he's in my sight. i feel like i'm capable of murder, or, suicide.

love's giving training whole of this week, poor thing. the week will be over soon. (: endure, love. its alr wednesday. 2 more days. and its gonna be over.. you got KTV to look forward to on friday (: busy month ahead for you.. rest enough. the month will breeze by, very quickly :D den it'll be off peak for you. smile, babylove. Loves (:

wang is sick too, hopefully she gets better soon.. and tt she'll sort everything out soon.. sighs.

haven met the clique for awhile. ): my brother, dear and laogong D: i miss them. the usual nonsense. the only reason why i'm looking forward to fam outing. them, and vonnie! okay shall call vonn vonn later. i wonder vin's injuries how le.. text him later (: rahh! i heart this clique. honestly do.

haven played audi for awhile.. sucks. now like BIG FAT NOOB. D: couple skills also drop. everything drop drop drop. Zzzz. time to get them all back? (: and have to drop by suntec soon. stupid passport problem. WASTE MY TIME. cant it just function properly. TSK.

lots of movies i wanna catch in the coming month.. honestly overwhelming. Zzz. how can all the movies all come out at the same month la. WALAO. here goes my list.

Gamer/I Love You, Beth Cooper/Dance Flick/G-Force/Time Traveller's Wife : 3rd sept.
Coraline/The Ugly Truth : 17th sept.
Fame : 24th sept.

8 movies in a month. WALAO. everything at one go. WAT THE HELL. one week 2 movies. TSK. bu xing man.

okay, i shall finish going on like a bull and finish up here.

I miss my clique. I miss my that friend. I miss Wang. and I miss my BabyLove. SIGHS. Byebye.

blogger isnt working fine. audition cannot play. FUCK. sucks sucks. NABEI. account cannot cash als fed up, now cannot even log in. WTF. not log in, cannot even start game. dont know audi go patch for wat fuck.

hmm my ear is freaking blocked. imagine i'm using only one ear to listen for the whole freaking past 5 days. AND i can only go back to the doctor's on wednesday. THIS IS MADDENING. valerie, if you're seeing this, i'm sorry. my ear not okay ): so never meet you.. dont scold me please.

i'm thinking thinking. abt tmr, and abt this whole week to come. i cant wait for wed, hopefully i can listen using TWO ears by then. i feel freaking disabled. imagine i go to a restaurant, i cant even really hear wat the waitress was saying! RAHH. my cough and flu also like few days alr. TMD. staying at home is alr horrible, stay at home being sick is even worse. D:

thinking abt november.. will i be able to get it by then? hmm.. sighs. i hope i can. sincerely hope so.

love went to get her wisdom tooth extracted =x hmm hopefully the pain would be bearable for her.. (: but become stupid alr ahhhh. haha your wisdom got extracted! HAHAH.

boys over flowers not very nice leh. so-so only ): any good shows to intro? :D

Fame: 24th sep. G-Force: 3rd sep. The Proposal: Out already. Gamer: Idk when.

i'm still really looking forward to G-force, and fame. haha, especially g force =x the guinea pigs. ultimate cuteness. HAHA. OH BTW. anyone knows of any nice porridge place? tell me where pls (: THANKYOUS!

okay i shall now log off, try to fix my stupid-like-fuck-still-not-working-audition. if cant work, i shall go cry on my bed alr. lol, goodnight world.. goodnight, to that someone i still wish was my friend. you.. really never missed what we had. you.. really never cared. despite my happiness now, thinking abt you, still drives me into that corner of pain. i wish, we never changed. i really really wished so.. could time rewind, please?

命运是当我认识了你。
幸福是当我爱上了你。

didnt blog for awhile. shall blog before i log into audi (: am getting better. except for a very horrible cough, i'm okay alr.

UP 3D on thursday. nice nice (: though 3D alil giddy. but company was great :D i hope love had a great day, cause i did. but honestly.. up is good, everyone should watch. G.I Joe next! takers, anyone? (:

friday had lunch with wang (: and then dinner with johnna. haha den went home. but it was a horrible day. cause, i was super sick. super sick ):

went JP with vincent, vincent's friend liza today. hmm dont quite like her.. i think tt she's like kinda not treating vin very well. but tt dumbass still likes her so much. Rahh. Bendan. passed Love what i wanted to pass her alr, hope she liked it~ dinner with vin and love (: though the food sucks. and i was actually half falling asleep. haha. but i still enjoyed the day nonetheless.. (: my phone hasnt rang so far.. hmm...

all in all, i am happy today. very happy. i could feel myself smile from the bottom of my heart. i hope, it wasnt just me.. i hope, the happiness i felt is mutual. hmm..

i made a promise to you, to myself.
a promise i'd keep, a promise i'd never let down.
i dont care what the past contained.
i only care abt what the present carries.
and what the future will bring.
come what may, i'll always remember the promise i made.
i know i'm right. i hope i'm right.
nothing will go wrong i guess, cause i wont let it go wrong.
i will definitely not.

i think i shall log in.. i think, i might be happy again. but i hope, it will not diminish again.

sick mann. cough flu sore throat, fever ): sucks. H1N1 perhaps? HAHAH. okay thats rubbish. i dont know how long more am i gonna stone at home. can someone just come along and save me? by giving me a job.

hmm rahhh, home is boring. ohhh and garfield & jw are gonna get their wedding after all :D hoho. scare me yesterday sia, si nic. audi is boring on its own. freaking sick of it. but not when love and the others are on :D heh~

i'm gonna take medicine =x and sleep, i think. i wanna get better before 5! haha alright i wanna scoot and rest alr.

when i find a job, i'll be elated. wish me luck, all.

love, UP? ^^ 3D! haha.

P.S. wang is sleeping ):

back from msia~ met up with GnB ppl :D enjoy enjoy. though towards the end.. RAHH. shall not continue.

staying home TODAY~ wo bu yao go out! i want to spam resumes today. i really stay at home till want cry alr. Zzzz i dont like being jobless. HATE IT.

kristyn's coming over. i wonder wat happened t her.. hmm..

audi is getting boring. lol, and i become noob alr. ytd really play like noob, so angry pls. LOL. hen sian~ cannot perf. fingers so retarded! TMD.

okay, i wanna watch UP soon with love (: and kristyn is here. BYEBYE!